Just dumping my thoughts here, there isn’t anything special about this post.
My mood is dented, it feels like a cloud is hovering over my head, even though it is a beautiful summer day. Perhaps a great day for a visit to the beaches, the temperature is just right, and there is not a cloud in the sky. I let my imagination run free and allow my spirit to tag along, this way I might be free from the things that are weighting me down.
I arrived at the wide open beach, standing there just for a few seconds, enjoying the feeling of my feet pressing into the warm sand. It brings back memories of the days that I use to run and soar through these sand. Sounds of the ocean beating on the sand, laughter of people all around me engaging in conversations, even the excitement of kids around me screaming and yelling rushed in and filled my mind. The happiness and joy around me became my own. As I took up I feel the wind blowing through my hair, the sunlight shining directly down, purging even the deepest darkness that is in me, recharging me with brightness and excitement.
I remember now that I am here because she is still here waiting for me. She knew my past, knew what it was like to be me, what my darkest hours were, but she waited by my side and supported me. I needed to find her, to tell her that I need just a little more time, to not give up on me. She loved and shared my dreams, my resolve is to not let her down. It means a lot to succeed, it means a lot more to succeed for her. I have to fight, she is the reason, the one I fight for.
Out of this dream I draw once again the energy needed to move on; I hope this well would never run dry. In the days to come, I might need this a lot more, but pleaase be there always, please be my light. I swear I will shine once again, brighter than ever, and never the same.
-Tyler
PS. The shopping blog will be a site of its own.
