A Long Way From Sainthood – TT

I am running from the my past but its linked to my memory
I am searching for the future but I am unsure of anything

ah…
I am bogged down by my mistakes
I can’t seem to shake them off my shoulder
I tried to forget them
But it comes back to haunt me in my sleep

Do I always mean well, of course!

My friends says, stop beating yourself up about it!

Who can understand! Who can relate to what I am going through!
Will my cries be heard? Will my past be forgiven?

Oh cruel cruel world, in you, true friends are hard to come by…
You keep everyone busy striving for things that benefit themselves.
You keep everyone busy living for the sake of surviving.

Am I lucky to have time frozen against my wishes…
Is it a blessing to be able to see time flying by…

So I sit here, in the highest room of the tallest tower
Feeling hopeless and helpless whether looking down or looking forward

But I know…
It is here and now that determines the future
It is here and now I will take a stand
It is here and now I will blindly search my way forward
…I just wish there is light leading my way

The Reason of My New Life – TT

Three times we met
Three days that last time
A life forever changed
Another never the same again

Time pulls you forward through experience
So you can quickly forget what happened that day
Time froze me in place through solitude
So I can’t forget what happened that day

A connection forged but pulled apart by fate
A sparked kindled but drawn by the world we live
In your eyes I saw the unspoken words each loud and clear
I reply with similar glaze and you acknowledge them in kind

Lots have happened since that day
But we shall never cross path again
This day I thank you for a beginning which you will never see
This day I wish you all the best with what you’re searching for

-for Minyi, but ironicly will never get to read this

To My Confidant – TT

Histories are written in books
Songs are recorded on CDs
Videos are burned on to DvDs

Smells are smoked into our senses
Sights are imprinted into our memory
Touches are translated into our feeling

But, dear confidant…

My thoughts are revised by you
My emotions are understood by you
My secrets are guarded by you

Where I seek peace so does my mind
Where I find rest so does my soul
Where my treasures lie so does my heart

Oh my confidant, what would I do without you?
Oh my confidant, what would I do with you?
Oh my confidant, what could I do with you?

Thoughts On… Masks

We put on masks in life, one for each aspect of it. Perhaps one for work, perhaps one for friends, perhaps one impress a love one, perhaps one for family and maybe even one for the in-laws. But don’t let the mask control you, you are the actor behind the mask, you can always decide what to do.

On Life – Soren Kierkegaard

Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.

So Much To Do, So Little Time – TT

There is so much I need to do
There is so much I want to do
There are so many things that needs tending
There are so many chores that needs completing

I wish time would stop
Perhaps multiply itself
Maybe slow down a little
Or even land me a hand

Yet it moves forward mercilessly
Pulling closer the deadlines I need to meet
And it marches on relentlessly
Treading over the dreams I want to accomplish

What can I do?
How shall I better use it?
Who can help me?
When would be too late?

Doing it Right – Unknown

If it is worth doing, it is worth doing right.

New Beginning – TT

So today a new beginning dawn
We can not relive our past
And with the blink of our eyes
Precious time are escaping by

Pressing forward we shall at once
May our senses guide our way
As we are wised by experiences
As we are inspired by ideas

Till that day we achieve our dream
We shall wish each other all well
With in time all shall be saw thru
And our life would unfold in light

Our Differences – TT

Our greatest difference between one another are the choices we make, and in the choices we make, we will cause others to be different from one another. This chain reaction will go on forever. But, starting with you let the reaction be a positive one; so that the difference produced are various degrees of positiveness.

Leadership – Harry Truman

Leadership is the ability to inspire others to work and make them enjoy doing it.

Open Mind and Heart – TT

Keep an open mind and open heart. There are more than one way to look at an idea. There are more than one way to solve the problem. If we shut ourselves off to other possibilities then we are only narrowing our own world.

Let’s Compromise – TT

Sometimes the answer doesn’t have to be a simple yes or no; it doesn’t need to be “either your way or the high way”. Because there is more than one way to solve the problem, so let’s compromise and come up with a better way together, whether in relationship, at work or in life.

Words of Power – Unknown

The most satisfying ‘two’ letter word…
        WE…
                use it

The most poisonous ‘three’ letter word…
        EGO…
                kill it

The most used ‘four’ letter word…
        LOVE…
                value it

The most pleasing ‘five’ letter word…
        SMILE…
                keep it

The fastest spreading ’six’ letter word…
        RUMOUR…
                ignore it

The hardest working ’seven’ letter word…
        SUCCESS…
                achieve it

The most enviable ‘eight’ letter word…
        JEALOUSY…
                distance it

The most powerful ‘nine’ letter word…
        KNOWLEDGE…
                acquire it

The most essential ‘ten’ letter word…
        CONFIDENCE…
                trust it

Thoughts On… Soul Touching

How many times do we get to walk through life and meet someone that can touch our soul? Isn’t he or she not soul mate that we should hang on to? After all, what deeper connection can two people share other then each others souls, and feelings from within? It is a crazy and childish idea to those who haven’t felt it, but it is the deepest connection for those that truly felt it.

Ask Why – TT

Ask questions if you want to know the answer, ask why if you want to understand the answer. In understanding we can better decide for ourselves what choices to make.

Something New – John C. Maxwell

When was the last time that you did something for the first time?

To Someone Dear – TT

You have always being a great friend to me
        Someone I run to when I am happy
        Someone I come to when I am sad
        Someone I share my ideas with
        Someone I whisper my dreams to

You have always been by my side
        At the moment of my biggest victory
        At the time of my greatest sorrow
        At the case of my greatest invention
        At the darkest hour of my life

I can’t help but be thankful always
        Much peace you present to my soul
        Much comfort I receive from you
        Much care you show my heart
        Much attention you give my mind

I wish for you to lead a great life
        For many hours of happiness awaits
        For many moments of exciting experience
        For many quests of knowledge conquer
        For many dreams of life come true

Loving People – John C. Maxwell

Loving people precedes leading/teaching/training/guiding them. People don’t care how much you know until they know how much you care.

To a Love[d] One – TT

So many nights we spent together
How can you not feel my heart wither

So much fun we experience with each other
How can you not see my hidden tears like other

I deserve to know why things ended this way
But its not like you cared about them anyway

I want to know why I am treated like this
But how can any reason be sufficient for this

So many things I feel I should explain
How can I when all you do is cause pain

I want the basic closure I should receive
But what is the use if all you do is deceive

Even with all the sorrows by my side
I hope life will bring you lots of joy inside

And though my life is full of variable
I wish always find that you are capable

Till someday we might meet again
May all that you have lost be regain

Till that day I happen to run into you
Allow me the honor to say I known you

Happy Birthday XL – TT

Happy birthday, birthday girl

How quickly time has flew by,
Twenty five years in the blink of an eye.
Much you have done over these years,
Much friends you have made from peers.

Have you discover the secrets of life?
Have you slept under the star and moon light?
Have you lay on the beach to watch the sunrise?
Have you taken time to look for your knight?

All the little things you love,
Cherish them more than you ever have.
Because with each passing climb,
You will find that you have less time.

In another blink of an eye,
Another twenty five years would have gone by.
You and I will no longer be,
We would have dissolved in memory.

But may today be the launch pad,
Toward the future you dreamt you had.
May tonight be the lucky night,
For all your dreams are made right.

-Happy birthday Xiaolu, hope you took some time out to enjoy it!

Until Next Time – TT

A friend busy at work doing something
 doing something very important
  important not just for her
   for her and her coworkers

A friend will miss her friend
 her friend across the internet
  the internet they met at
   met at to chat frequently

A friend will be so busy
 so busy her friend will be forgotten
  forgotten only becuase she is busy
   busy at a conference in Santika

A friend will look forward
 forward through time into next week
  next week they can chat again
   chat again about life and all parts of it

Teaching and Learning – John C. Maxwell

Effective learning is a two way street. It’s a dialogue, not a monologue.

Our Qualities – TT

Think of all the good qualities in a person that you admire, this would include their behavior, temperament and character. They are all qualities that are achievable. Now if you look at qualities that turn you off in others, there isn’t a quality that you have to have! And if you happen to have them you can work towards getting rid of it. And it would be easier to gain the good qualities and loose the bad ones sooner than later.

-Inspired by Warren Buffett

Job You Love – Warren Buffett

You should really take a job that if you were independently wealthy you would take. That’s the job you will have a lot of fun in and one you will really love because you are not doing it for money.

The Best In You – TT

The best people to get along with are the people that brings out the best in you!

Inequality – Justice Frankfurter

There is no greater inequality than equal treatments of unequal.

Thoughts On… Break Up

When the relationship ends, there are heart breaks, heart aches, even feelings of revenge or really hurting the other (one you use to love!)
I urge you to be the bigger person, see past this… see beyond all of this… picture yourself when you are 50 or 75… You would look back and say what? or feel what? The point is to clear your head first before doing anything that you will regret.

I hope you can always focus on the good moments, because they are the only ones worth remembering. The most beautiful love stories are the ones where the couple couldn’t be together, The Bridges of Madison County for example or Brokeback Mountain. Who is to say that they will live happily ever after if they really had the chance? But they sure had a bunch of happy memories to live by! So in you relationships remember those moments.

-Inspired by a conversation with Shanel Chen and Steve Chen

Memories and Experiences – TT

Our lives, full of memories, made of experiences… Will we seek to repeat them or will we strive to learn from them? Hopefully we will continue to ask for the courage to live true to ourselves and love true to one another.

Journey thru Time – TT

As I materialize in this surreal realm
I was compelled to explore the surrounding
I under the beautiful sun light I traveled
I felt the breezy wind on my face and skin
Everything here is full of life and colors

As I started to wonder down the path of time
The sceneries turn from assorted colors to green
The breezy winds are no longer as cool
I felt my body grow tired and thirsty
My curiosity leads me up the distant mountain

As I peeked over the top of the mountain
I caught a view of the green forest below
But as I strolled down the enchanted path
Leaves around gradually turned orange and red
Lovely sight as the world prepared to rest

As I walked past and continue down time itself
The sky dimmed slowly and an icy world emerged
Countless white crystals failed from the heaven
Crystals froze all life it touched and landed on
I feared my journey has came to an end

-Inspired by our lovely four seasons

Share Views Not Arguments – TT

When you share a different opinion with someone, skip the customarily tradition of trying to convince the other person his or her idea is wrong. Instead, give good examples on why you believe in your idea.